embrace the wind and constrain it
in the illusion of a crystal cave
while the mighty surge of a tempestuous river
takes its path to merge with the rush
and shatter the frontiers into smithereens.

who would wish to revive the ashen shadows
of unfulfilled passions and unrequited longings
when all that remains is the ghost of the past
and the memory of a hopeless fantasy
in a world of self-indulgent and unilateral idealists?

calm down your heart in the deathly ambience
of an irreparable wasteland inhabited by unrepentant egos
who as yet hold on tight to the chimera of euphoria
while facing the empty walls of reality
that echoes the voice of unyielding liberty.

                                                                                                                                — r. f. pepa
28 November 2014

Relationships Between Generations


“As is the generation of leaves, so is that of humanity.
The wind scatters the leaves on the ground, but the live timber
Burgeons with leaves again in the season of spring returning.
So one generation of men will grow while another dies.”
— Homer, Iliad

“The first half of our lives is ruined by our parents and the second half by our children.”  
— Clarence Darrow

“It is one of nature’s ways that we often feel closer to distant generations than to the generation immediately preceding us.”
— Igor Stravinsky

“There is nothing wrong with today’s teenager that twenty years won’t cure.”  
— Anonymous

Life goes on without interruption (for “life interruption” is an illusion, being simply a matter of subjective judgment and feelings) as time flies, so to speak. Generations come and go leaving imprints of their highest and lowest points, i.e., both good and despicable, as well as both pleasing and unpleasant. Humanity has witnessed the flux of generations as in the case of an old one gradually dissipating and giving way to a new one in a very spontaneous process. But even the notion of total dissipation is an illusion for there are always traces of the past that continue to linger in the present whether such are clearly vivid in consciousness or hibernating in the unconscious to be awakened in some future moment. Generations are temporal stations of being whose natural relationships are essentially interconnected in memory and reflection.

However, the train of events that runs from one generation to the next is not only characterized in a movement controlled by an unseen mysterious power which is also an illusion. The cause-effect continuum is the most viable paradigm to assess the meaningfulness of passing generations in the most reasonable context. One state of affairs gives rise to another which in turn gives rise to a new one and then another one is spawned by the former and the whole perpetual motion goes on and on and on, ad infinitum. There is therefore not a single generation unconnected with the previous one. In other words, generations are all interrelated.

Nevertheless, the continuum doesn’t imply passivity for within the dynamics itself of the movement are active components that emanate from the will-power of human entities being the principal players in the game of life. Paychoanalysis both in its Freudian kind and the Jungian depth psychology variety as well presupposes the vital interconnectedness of generations past and present in the life of an individual human and the significant influence of the past in the present dispensation. Circumstances at face value could appear very dissimilar but a close scrutiny that likewise gets us to their “historical” backgrounds would give us the whole story that in one way or another links them and makes us realize that one couldn’t have been possible at all without the other.

But veering away from the theoretical and getting face to face with what is actually obtaining in life as it has been humanly experienced–both current and historical–brings us to the reality that generations don’t see eye to eye. The present finds a myriad of faults in the past while the past gets upset with the present because of what the former perceives as blatant interruptions that demand change. The past doesn’t want modification while the present wants to do away with the past. At first glance, we see a linear progression but a deeper analysis brings us to a cyclical motion with the realization that the past used to be the present displaying the same attitude aggressively perpetrated by what is present now. In the coming next generation, the expectation is almost a foregone conclusion that the present now will be past at the inception of a new one and the whole cycle repeats itself.

The lyrics of the song “Father and Son” [] penned and popularized in the 1970s by the British singer-songwriter Cat Stevens (later, Yusuf Islam after converting to Islam) poetically reflects how the old and the new don’t sit well with each other in the simple context of how a father relates with his son and vice versa. The father’s admonition is heard in the first and second stanzas as follows:

It’s not time to make a change
Just relax, take it easy
You’re still young, that’s your fault
There’s so much you have to know
Find a girl, settle down
If you want you can marry
Look at me, I am old, but I’m happy

I was once like you are now
And I know that it’s not easy
To be calm when you’ve found
Something going on
But take your time, think a lot
Think of everything you’ve got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not

Then the irritated son replies in the third and fifth stanzas:

How can I try to explain?
When I do he turns away again
It’s always been the same, same old story
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen
Now there’s a way
And I know that I have to go away
I know I have to go

All the times that I’ve cried
Keeping all the things I knew inside
It’s hard, but it’s harder to ignore it
If they were right I’d agree
But it’s them they know, not me
Now there’s a way
And I know that I have to go away
I know I have to go

New experiences, new realities in the context of the young which seem to be ordinary matters easily handled from the point of view of the more experienced “all-knowing” father are supposed to be challenging and exciting moments to the former which the latter tends to simply dismiss as things that may casually be handled if the son would only sit down and listen to “the voice of experience”.

On the one hand, the old generation seems to have gotten used to impose too much of its values on the new one with the implied thought that old values are time-tested and thus almost universal and timeless in their applicability. This is an area of advocacy where old-timers are more often inaccurate and faulty and such is simply because they just don’t have the openmindedness to listen to and feel “the signs of the times”. Time has stopped in their dogmatic musing with the absolute belief that things must happen as they have happened in their lifetime. Events just repeat themselves and this notion is the sole factor that grants them the edge over and above the young generation who in recognition of such truth must listen to and take heed of their words. . . . Been there; done that.

On the other hand, the new generation gets into the trap of ignoring the lessons of the past which in general are matters of historical significance. Recklessness is the path taken with an air of aggressiveness which in many instances is on full speed and heedless of risks and threats of trouble lurking along the way. With the seemingly airtight notion that new exigencies require new approaches and the old ways are irrelevant and non-operative, young people of the new generation are just normally dismissive of warnings from the more experienced old-timers. With a certain degree of youthful arrogance, young folks are convinced that these old-timers need to toe their line if they want themselves to make sense in the new generation. Accepting new realities and approaching them with the instrumentalities of the present dispensation is the name of the game and the reversed dynamic is that the old-timers are supposed to be the ones to listen to the voices of the new generation.

Assessing the entire landscape from a more objective platform, it may be reasonably viewed that apparently both sides have an extremist tendency despite the fact that a common ground is perfectly in sight. Obviously, stubborness afflicts both sides and nobody wants to give an inch. This is the key area why the battle continues. The old generation is backed up by the solidness of irrevocable experiences in both triumphs and defeats while the new generation is pushed forward by an aggressive spirit to explore and conquer terrains of new possibilities. Indeed very few are sober-minded enough on both sides to sit back and put their heads together to understand each other and give their concerns a run for their money, so to speak.

But how really “all-knowing” are we to make a final evaluation at this point and theoretically insist that a common ground is perfectly achievable? Perhaps not at all and the conflict between generations continues relentlessly for this very condition makes the world go round and inspires life in a more exhilarating way.

(c) Ruel F. Pepa, 25 November 2014

The Way to Happiness: Reality or Illusion?


“Rob the average man of his life-illusion and you rob him also of his happiness.”
–Henrik Ibsen

“Happiness is just an illusion, filled with sadness and confusion.”

“There are some people who always feel happy. They’re called psychopaths .”
–Tal Ben-Shahar

“Happiness is just an illusion caused by the temporary absence of reality.”

“The way to happiness” . . .  Could it belong in the same category as: “The fountain of youth” . . . “The elixir of life” . . . “The philosopher’s stone”. . . “The stairway to heaven”?  A fantasy? An illusion? A chimera? An ignis fatuus or “a deceptive goal or hope”?

If there is really such a way to happiness, at least there should have already been one who has found it, trodden on it, arrived finally at the point of happiness and revealed to us her/his own exhilarating experience right at the vortex of such happiness. Happiness is the perennial goal of humanity expressed in poetic hopes and dreams as a condition of contentment and bliss where life is no longer haunted by problems and difficulties, pains and heartaches, troubles and misfortunes, losses and defeats.

In Platonic (and even neo-Platonic) metaphysics, happiness is an ideal housed in the realm of universals along with the others that are permanent, indestructible, eternal and perfect. In this sense, there is no way for us to locate it in the daily grind of earthly life which on the one hand is full of frustrations and failures while on the other hand is somehow greeted with some glimpses of pleasure every now and then. In the latter realm of particular human experiences, what we can certainly verify, validate and justify is the reality of temporal suffering and pleasure like the cycle of seasons and the constancy of  habits that constitute the drama of life from which we derive its meaningfulness expressed in sorrow and delight, in grief and celebration, in sadness and pleasure.

Happiness continues to remain a nebulous star and one’s search for the way that leads to it is an exercise in futility. We know a myriad of ways to a variety of destinations and these ways are not the same despite some similarities for the end-goals are not the same. Every human individual under normal circumstances is replete with objectives and plans aimed to hit specific targets from simple wishes to ambitious projects. Along the way, we are not strangers to defeat and victory, failure and success. Despite defeat and failure, we plod on unmindful of giving up for the spirit of hope in our system persists with an air of spontaneity and those who have succeeded are wont to savor the sweet aroma of victory in pleasurable celebration. These are down-to-earth empirical instances more understandable in terms of pleasure than in the sense of permanent happiness for such achievement doesn’t catapult the achiever up in the seventh heaven of eternal happiness.

If in a linguistic consideration we associate and thus understand happiness as pleasure, there is therefore nothing uniquely special and ethereal in the essence of happiness. Happiness as pleasure (and pleasure as happiness for that matter) doesn’t really have an equally uniquely special and ethereal way for the ways of pleasure are many and the same applies to happiness. In this sense, happiness is stripped off of its “magick” and the terrain of its location is levelled off to what is common and ordinary in the human condition. As a matter of common expression, “I am happy” doesn’t therefore evoke a special and celestial meaning that describes an individual in a state of perpetual bliss.

Or perhaps, the reality of “happiness” is actually experienced as we courageously tread on the ways of life which in general are characterized by challenges and struggles.

(c) Ruel F. Pepa, 20 November 2014

The “Skeleton” Within Us


“If your life is like a tragedy it is because you have been neglecting something — most likely yourself.”
                — Bryant McGill, Simple Reminders: Inspiration for Living Your Best Life

“It is the neglect of timely repair that makes rebuilding necessary.”
— Richard Whately

 “Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.”
— Aldous Huxley

 “Before the stroke, I was on a very spiritual plane. I ignored my body, took it for granted. When I look at my life, I see that I wanted to be free of the physical plane, the psychological plane, and when I got free of those, I didn’t want to go anywhere near them. But the stroke reminded me that I had a body and a brain, that I had to honor them.”
— Ram Dass (Richard Alpert)


We seem to be always busy doing and thinking–even dreaming–a lot within everyday of our lives. Things deemed important in life in general as well as concerns about job, school, family and relationships in particular preoccupy our thoughts. Many times we just do things at random and what comes up along the way gets the priority over the others. An amorphous collection of things to do and think–initiatives and relationships–generally dominate the order of the day. There is too much concern on certain things while less, even nil, on others.

This scenario is commonplace in the human condition until we get to a particularly “more relaxed” point that engages us to reflect on the deeper matters of life. Then some neglected aspects of our circumstances come up with the realization that we have been unfair with them as we have simply and generally ignored and even forgotten them. They are like the seemingly less important and thus negligible skeleton within us without which none of our physical performances may ever be actually effected.

We could in a way be likened to mixed martial arts fighter Anderson Silva who some months ago very seriously fractured his left leg in full view of a horrified live audience  during a UFC championship match with challenger Chris Wiedman. It was a terribly painful way to remind a highly rated gladiator of how important his skeleton was as he had always previously focused much more on his muscles and fighting techniques all the time until tragedy struck on that fateful night.

Thematizing the “skeleton” within us is symbolic of how we get to a stark realization of how we tend to neglect, ignore and even forget the ordinary presence of people, things, places and events in our daily lives until a point in time when we need them comes. Co-employees right in the workplace where we spend eight hours five days a week are just there and whose sporadic importance simply depends on the need of the hour. Friends and family who have always been supportive of every endeavor we get into but we only get mindful of them once in a blue moon. Things on the shelves we see day in and day out that we generally ignore until some very important need for them crops up and we just couldnt’ remember where we last saw them. These are all like the skeleton within us.

Of course, we reckon our limitations and because of these, we tend to neglect, ignore and forget. We are creatures of particular moments whose unilateral focus on very specific events gets an upperhand over and above other matters presumed to be of less significance. Then we get to a point of helplessness and failure and hence a realization that had we been mindful of some related and connected states of affairs, we could have successfully accomplished what we earlier started.

The point we have reached thus far is an acknowledgment not of these “skeletons´” non-existence because they are just there. In fact, in most if not all cases, we are actually using them as they assist us all along in the performance of certain tasks we need to do. They are not the proverbial “skeleton in the closet”  of which we are always mindful not to expose in public for doing so would mean some modicum of risk.

(c) Ruel F. Pepa, 13 November 2014

The Line Between Genius and Insanity

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“There’s a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.”
Oscar Levant

“Men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligence– whether much that is glorious– whether all that is profound– does not spring from disease of thought– from moods of mind exalted at the expense of the general intellect.”
Edgar Allan Poe, Complete Tales and Poems

“The difference between insanity and genius is success.”
 ― Bruce Feirstein, Tomorrow Never Dies

The line between genius and insanity is a very thin one. In fact, in certain cases, such boundary has already been erased and a genius is said to be insane and an insane is likewise considered a genius. There is however no necessary connection between them because there are geniuses who are not insane and there are insanes but they are not geniuses. But what makes one a genius or an insane?

Several types of intelligence quotient (IQ) tests have different ways to determine in quantifiable terms one’s level of intelligence. According to the Wechsler Intelligence Scales, an individual with an IQ range of 130 and above is “very superior”–i.e., a genius. Based on the Stanford-Binet Intelligence Scale, a genius–someone who is “very gifted or highly advanced”–has an IQ range of 145-160. According to the standard of Woodcock-Johnson Test of Cognitive Abilities, one whose IQ is 131 and above is “very superior” and hence a genius. Besides these more often used testing scales, there are still more which have been developed and  copyrighted for human intelligence measurement and commonly administered in different institutional settings. In most cases, the intelligence quotient range of someone considered a genius is generally fixed from 130 upwards.

But when do we say that someone is insane? In most if not all cases, the term “insane” is arbitrarily used as a matter of subjective judgment. One is insane if s/he doesn’t conform to generally accepted beliefs held by the majority. Insanity is therefore a category of negative impression. Someone whose belief is contrary to a generally held conviction of a group is not only considered an adversary but is likewise viewed with contempt and hence derisively treated as insane. This is a very common majority attitude to insult and isolate the critical few. In certain historically prominent events though, humanity has witnessed the rise to megalomaniac power of some insane personalities to lead their respective social formations, even their nations. In this case, the opposite happens as the majority are swayed by and thus become subservient to their insane leaders.

Looking at it from a more balanced vantage point, we could in fact get to a more intersubjective (if not absolutely objective) assessment of the condition of insanity after all. Someone who has a distorted view of “objective reality” is automatically considered insane not as a matter of opinion but as a matter of empirical observation. Someone whose understanding of certain circumstances runs counter to and violates the simple course of common sense and blatantly assaults the trenches of sound and valid logical arguments is indubitably insane. In this particular circumstance, insanity is not genius.

But what really is the fuss over the issue of insanity and genius? I don’t quite see any serious problem at all if one is both genius and insane but her/his insanity is by no means destructive while her/his genius is  creative, productive and beneficial to society. This leads us to a more focused evaluation of genius which could be creative, productive and beneficial on the one hand but destructive, unproductive and useless on the other. Having the latter aspect of genius could be construed as something which is at the same level as a type of insanity that does not actually contribute anything for the flourishing of the human condtion.

But is it possible for us to do a similar evaluation of insanity so that in the final analysis, we could say there is a type of insanity that is creative, productive and beneficial while there is also a type that is destructive, unproductive and useless? Once ascertained, it could somehow lead us to a point where the line between genius and insanity becomes prominently distinct and finally get us to the conclusion that affirms the fact that genius could have an aspect of insanity and an aspect of sanity as well. This I think is the more important issue where instead of drawing a line between genius and insanity, we rather do it to distinguish between sane genius and insane genius.

(c) Ruel F. Pepa, 6 November 2014